a month from now...

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Sunday, 11 September 2011

ASSALAMUALAIKUM....

i'm sorry readers if some of you can't read english very well,,,, because today my post will be in english,,, and for those who are great in english,, sorry because i can make a lot of mistake in this post,, no laugh,, no critics,, no word stabbing,, but you can tell me calmly and nicely and in that way,, i can take it calmly too...



i wonder why,, when i remember this certain someone,, i cant help feeling that she's missing me, as i missing her,, divided by distance,, :) we used to talk for a long period of time, reducing our phone's credits just to hear each other voice even if it just a silent, as long as i can still see her name at my phone's skrin with that calling symbol. i'll be fine.. :) i wonder why she want to have the "no talk" session,, meaning..?? kindda losing touch 4 a period of time... in this case. its a month...

i told her that i can be a great candidate for a friend but im not a good candidate to be more than that,, she doesnt care.. she's seem happy with me.,, :) and im happy too.. i know when im trying to find a girl, everytime, there will always trouble following me,, i dont really know what wrong with me.. is it me..?? or those who are around me,, its a mystery i guess..

there is one thing that disturbed me 4 a while now,, she said that im funny, im different than other guys, im a "HOTSTUFF" , im always laugh when she said that,,  :D but she also said that there's a lot of girls that are chasing me,, and did i chase them back..?? no.. i can look for more girls other than her,, but did i..?? no.. is she doubting me..?? she should and she could... im still a guy... and nowadays, guys always been seen as the source of evil,, if a girl do something bad, everybody will say that a guy is behind her doings.

one thing is for sure,, im happy when she calls me,, or vice versa,, :) i lost all focus to study,,hahaha,,, im okay with that,, i can study up to 5 hours straight,, so no big deal if it just a few minutes of talking.. :D hehe3,,,, anyhow,, im loving my life right now,, :) there's someone who care for me eventhough she's far away, im making great friends here in micost, and i have the best study time ever,, haha,,, isn't great right..?? if you want to achieve succes la... ^_^

so how am i going to make her happy...?? im still working on that,,, every girl want to have different story to be told about their happy side of the story... so its that side i need to be fit in.. no way im going to be in her bad side of the story,,, =.=  when is this session going to end.... errrghhh,, its okay hazim,, be chill,,, focus on your study,, maybe that is why she did this "NO TALK" session,, not going to let her down,,, ^_^..

and there's a word of a friend of mine : " xperlu lah kita memikirkan sangat tentang GF or BF ni sbb hanyya sia2 jika x ke jinjang pelamin, dah la tuhan x suke,,, "lebih kurang macam ni la.. haha... makan abis siut ayat dy ni,,, :) tapi nak wat macam mana,, cari pengalamn,, dari hubungan cam ni la dapat membetulkan sifat buruk kita.. hehe3..

to "certain someone" : kau nak tinggalkan aku ke bila aku da mula sayang kau ni,...?? jgn k.. haha,,, walaupun ada beribu bunga di taman,, bukan semua yang akan aku petik.. ingat tu.. :)

P/S : aku sebenarnya x suke wat post jiwang cam ni, jambu pun ada,,, laki2 mana la suke bicara prasaan nih,, hehe3,,,, tapi aku wat gak,, :D

CoUnTdOwN.. #32.. 31.. ---> 0..!

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Monday, 5 September 2011

Assalamualaikum,,,,
:)

hari ini rasa nya short je kot sebab tak ada perkataan yang ley gmbar kn apa yang da jadi kat aku sejak dua menjak ni.. :D
hehe3,,,

pertukaran language..........

feeling of unsure is still haunting me because im still puzzled how i get to be here,, in this situation,,, sorry i cant make it any more clear,,, this is one of my posts that i prefer to fill it with questions... :)
i have determined and i am facing the situation by my own.. :) no one else in my side of the world has known about my little secret,, hehe3,,,, but i think she'll gonna be just like the other girls i met,,,, where they all hated me for knowing and living in my life,,, its just the matter of time before she goin to say,, i hate u.... will that day ever come..?? i hope not..... ==' so i hope she can accept me for who i am,, i cant change who i am,,, especially in my age... in malay, there's a proverb ... "makin besar makin liat" hahaha,,,, meaning,, as we get older it is harder for us to change.. :)

so the countdown has begun for our "no talk" sesion,,,, y..? she's planned it and i think it is the best.... exam is closing on me,,,, need to focus on that more than anything else,,, and for those who are hurted to read this post,, im sorry.... i cant make everbody happy... im only one person to please the world... im not as strong as superman and even him cant make the world smile... but i am right now... ^_^ smiling that is.. hehe3...

im waiting for that moment where can talk again,,, ^_^ ....

i still in mixed feeling bcause i still iving in my old life,,, although im about to start a new chapter in my book of life..... i wonder if  i can get through this,,, oh ALLAH,,, plizz help your servant.... ~_~
i nedd to make a room for this new life,, but where can i put it in...??? ERGH...!

p/s : my english isn't very good... sorry for the mistakes i made....

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